Another Big Phase of Life :)

Senior High School has end! :D

This chest is so full of feelings. Sad, happy, relieved, grateful, etc, all became one. 

But of course, eventhough we don't want to move on, we have to. Another big phase of life is waiting for us. College. Graduation. New life. Grow up.

Come to think of it, we're no longer teenager. We will become adult. Man and woman. Ladies and gentleman. Soon, we will have to think about our future. What will we be? How will our life be?

But, let's take a moment to look back of our life.

3 years ago, I was just a little girl came to this big town. I have no friends, all by myself. Came to this school St. Louis 1 Surabaya, and studied in my extraordinary class, XF. There, I found my awesome friends. Until now, we created a group called IMF. Yeah, thanks to XF. 

2 years ago, I moved from XF to 11th grade Science 2. Here too, I found my classmates. New classmates. And unfortunately, I had some trouble here which made me uncomfortable with this class. 

In this year also, I fell in love, I got into a relationship, and I had a fight with my class. It was a heavy year. But also I enjoyed my relationship a lot. But yeah, every happy moments has it ends. And I believe so does every sad moments.

1 year ago, still in this science 2, my problem with the class hasn't been solved yet. Plus, I broke up. I was teared down. And thanks to IMF, they encouraged me. They supported me and cheered me. In this year, we went to do some retret, 3 days 2 nights together in a camp ground with the classmates.

Here, we solved our problem. Me and my classmates and other groups problem. Although there were so many tears there, there was some relieved feelings. Although I broke up, at least me and my classmates relation became better. But I have to admit that the problem between us has been left for too long time so that it creates a big empty space between. It wasn't easy to join back and to joke around with them. It kinda felt awkward. And I have to admit that I still got this heart sick of them, and I was too weak to be with them because my ex was there with them. And one of them, is my ex next girlfriend. Although he said "no, she wouldn't be my next girlfriend." But talk is cheap, right? Well but still, I was happy that the problem between me and my friend was solved. 

3 months after my broke up, he got into relationship with this girl. Made me sick of him and her. For a while, I couldn't talk to them. Because if I did, my face would show that I was so sick of them. And a month after that, I got into relationship with my friend. He said he liked me since the 10th grade. 

We went to Batu together on December. But unfortunately, on 23 January our relationship didn't work. With the agreement from both of us, we ended our relationship and decided to be just friend like before. 

And after that, there was another boy put up with me. He cheered me, he cared me and we got into this special zone. We were more than friend and less than a lover. And of course, I didn't get into relationship with him, because I wasn't so sure of getting into relationship and it was too fast. But with the one and a half pressure in class, I couldn't help that he was my fresh air. Why one and a half? One is for my ex and his girlfriend and half is for my classmates. Although we were fine, I still couldn't totally joined them right?

And on February 14th, he said he wanted to be my boyfriend. I refused, of course, and he was a little upset, I think... But then our relationship still working. And as the time walked, our relationship became closer and closer. Eventhough we made it secret, rumor still spit out. 

March, it was a busy month. We got many tasks and exams. And who knew from this tasks and exams it made me and my classmates closer? Because of the group tasks, we have to work together. Talk to each other, and it was fun!

And when the exams finally over, it was time to Bali la Vista. 6 days 5 nights with them, I tried to stay with them and didn't go to my comfort zone, IMF. And yeah, it was fun to stay with them. I was wrong these 2 years, because I always go to my comfort zone and leave my class. It was wrong. Just because I have some problems with my class doesn't mean I can't finish it. Sorry for everything. I should have known that this class too, is amazing.

And fun, with their own style. All I have to do is just flow with the air. Of course I can't compare science 2 with IMF. I was that wrong. 

And thus, with all of my stories in high school, there are so many other untold story. 

It is over now. 

And it is end happily. Thanks :)